One year down

I can't believe that a year ago we were making our first fertility doctor appointments.

A part of me is really disappointed and angry and frustrated. It feels like the last year was a complete waste of time. We aren't any closer to finding out why we aren't getting pregnant. We don't have any answers or results.

Another part of me says God is just telling us that this last year wasn't the right time. We were moving; starting a whole new chapter in our lives.

We have been in our new home for eight months now. We are settling, spending time with family, my parents have come down to visit twice, we got to spend Christmas with my family. We went on an amazing vacation. I quit the job I found when we first moved and am now, happily, working for the company I left in 2014 when we moved to Colorado. I have my old job back. And I get to work remotely from home. This is HUGE for me. I loved my job and didn't want to leave it behind. Making that sacrifice for my husband and our future was one of the hardest things I've done. So I can't begin to express my thankfulness that things worked out they way they did five months ago.

Since going back to my job we now have health insurance again and I can start looking into what coverage I might have. I've also started looking for new doctors in the area. I'm ready to get back on the train, and I think as soon as my husbands job "situation" changes, we'll be able to move forward.


Keeping my fingers crossed that "this will be the year" for us.